Over...I Think...

This post is most likely way to much personal information for most of you. If you do not find the details of WHY I believe this pregnancy attempt to be over, then you may just want to skip on down to the post of the girl thinking I am 18, or just come back tomorrow....also, I am a fan of the intro paragraph in italics..makes it seem like we are talking about something very important...

Still here? Well, don't say I didn't warn you. I think I am starting my period. I know you are all sitting there thinking, "you THINK?? Wouldn't you KNOW??" and that is a very good question. Unfortunately the answer is no. I started spotting on Sunday (day 23 of my cycle, 9 days after IUI). I was not crushed. I was not in tears. I was honestly shocked. Not that it didn't work, but really that I was bleeding this early. I am a late starter. Day 30-35. This was odd. It went away that day, but then was back yesterday morning...and it was more starting period like. (details details...details that most likely nobody is interested in but me...but if I don't talk about it, it will drive me mad...).

Anyway, yesterday I decided I was in fact starting. The only issue was that the Clomid did say it could cause bleeding, and to take a pregnancy test before I started the pills (day three of new cycle). Extra problem, I know a pregnancy test would not be accurate at day 24 of this cycle. I do know that implantation bleeding also exists, but for some reason I don't want to cry "Implantation bleeding!!" because I feel like that is what all infertile girls think when they start their period. I am really avoiding false hope...but I did call my doctor. I didn't want to start the Clomid if it is just random bleeding. I didn't want to not start counting my days if this is my period....you see the problem. HOW DO I KNOOOOOOW??

Doc says it is not my period. day 23 is way to early. That is, of course, unless it doesn't stop and it does get heavier like...you know...a period. Then it is my period after all and who ever heard of a period on day 23...amazing medical mysteries!! They say all I can do is wait. Take a test in a few days. Cross fingers. Pray. This gave me hope...maybe it IS implantation bleeding!!

The thing is...as last night and this morning rolled on I am still bleeding...lightly, but bleeding. Not enough to call it a period, but enough to know it doesn't seem like a good start to a pregnancy. Plus, my lower back is starting to hurt...a well known sign for me that I am starting. In all fairness I should mention that back aches was also included with symptoms of implantation bleeding...but to be honest, I just don't feel it. Maybe it is me protecting myself, or maybe it is just me being honest, I am not sure. But if my vote counts for something (and it better on my own blog!) then I say we are coming to an end of this first cycle...only time will tell.