Really Real

I was talking with Raising A & C yesterday over email and she asked me how the fertility stuff was going. I told her that honestly, I knew in my head that it was happening, but really, if felt more like one of those things you SAY you are going to do...and then never get around to. It should be real. We have the appointments set. We know our time table, hell we are on top of our time table. We have the medications ordered. We are rolling. It's just that it doesn't FEEL like anything is happening. I am on birth control. I mean, that takes me back to WAY before this all began, and that is the only medication I am on. I have no idea what I am doing or when I take these shots and pills. It's just...something in the future. Or at least...until today. Today I got these in the mail...

Three medications for injections (Leuprolide, Follistrim and Chronic Gonad) and four medications in capsules (Prometrium, Tramadol, Prednisone and Doxycycline ) plus a TON of needles. A frightening number of needles...a frightening number of medications considering I think they will all be gone in a month. A MONTH!

Nick and I go in for our meeting with the IVF coordinator a week from tomorrow. She will go over exactly what the hell I do with all these meds, and then that same day (July 23rd) we begin the injections. I am so happy I had the chance to get away on vacation before this started. A chance to not have to think about it. But now, now I am ready to get rolling. Now it is really starting to feel real!

**anybody out there know why I am not on progesterone? I can ask the doc next week, but I was a little surprised it was not on the list. I guess there are enough other things here that I wont really miss it...**