A Letter

Dear my sweet baby,

In two days you will be here. Your papa and I are so so excited to meet you. We have been waiting on you for so long. I can't wait to see your sweet face and kiss your tiny little hands and feet. I want to see if you are a boy or girl and give you your name. I want to see if you look like your papa or if you look like me. Deep down I don't think there is any way you will look like me, but maybe I will be in there somewhere too! Thursday will be the day our family changes forever, and we are so excited for our new life to begin. You will change everything and we could not be happier.

I have loved every second of being pregnant with you. You have been a true joy to both me and your papa from the moment we found out you were there. Even before that, the hope of you was so strong it could move me to tears. No baby has ever been more wanted, or more loved before you are even here. I will miss you in my belly. I know I will forget that once I see you, but for now it makes me sad to think of you not being here with me all the time. For nine months now it has been me and you, and I have loved this time. Feeling you move is something I will never forget. Having your little feet stretch and push is amazing. I love to watch your daddy watch you move. His face lights up when he sees you and feels you kick. He loves you so, and I cannot wait for him to hold you for the first time.

I love all the things I know about you from carrying you for nine months. I love how you have the hiccups so often. You get them every day. I wonder if you will have them after you are born. I love that you are a night owl like me and your daddy. I wonder if I will still love that when you keep us up at night! I love how you wake me up at 4am every morning, and wonder if you will keep that schedule once you are here. I wonder so much about you. I wonder what you will look like, but even more I wonder who you will become. Will you have your daddy's drive and dedication? Will you have my outgoing personality? Will you have our sense of humor? Your daddy and I are so alike in that way, and I think you will be too. I hope you have our love of learning, and that we are able to support that and help it grow.

I have things I want for you, both traits that we have, and ones that we don't, but if they are not part of who you are that is okay. Most of all I just want to know you. To see who you are going to become. To help you as much as possible to be that person. I want to surround you with love and be the best mama I can be. I want you to know we are always there and we always support you. To know you have so much family that truly love you already. Oh how everyone is excited to meet you and kiss your sweet face. You will be so loved. You already are. Me and your papa will do our best to be the best parents to you. I am sure it will be hard, but we will always try. You are our life. We have done lots of things, but you are by far the most important. It is hard to imagine I will love you more than I do right now, but I know it will grow when I see your face. I can't wait for that moment.

XOXO,
Mama