I feel like I should blog something. Something funny and uplifting. I should tell you how great Missy is doing, because she IS doing great you all. So so great. Or I should tell you about how wonderful it is to be home. But these thoughts seem to come out better in the 140 characters required on Twitter than they do on the big open space of a "New Post" window.
Honestly, I am stressed. I am happy about the surgery, but worried about the lab results. I am stressed over the fact that I am spotting like crazy on the birth control. I think I have had a cyst burst in the last ten days. Maybe two. Which...you know... is really fun. My work is crazy busy and I am digging out of the hole from my time off. On top of that, we are having a consult this week for Henry and his non-talking, which I haven't really talked about or worried about, but the fact that they are coming in to evaluate it just makes it feel like something bigger. All these things are okay. Individually they are each not that big of a deal, non-issues really. But adding them all together on top of the worry over Missy and I am just on the verge of tears. All the time.
And then I worry about posting this. Because really, do you all want to hear more that I am stressed. That I am worried. That I am overwhelmed. Again. Still. We are so lucky Missy is doing so well, and that is what is important. I just wish everything else could sort of give me a break. Because I can't really handle anything more right now.
Bummer :( Hang in there maam...it seems like when it rains, it pours and everything else that happens just makes it even worse. Hopeing that things start to look up for you soon.
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ReplyDeleteI think all of your blog readers would rather know how you're really feeling, so we can offer you support, than have you simply keep quiet about these times. You have A LOT going on right now, and it isn't easy to deal with the things life throws at us sometimes. I think I would be more shocked if you weren't feeling so stressed some of the time.
Know that you are in my thoughts daily and I hope the lab results come back fine for Missy, that your upcoming FET is successful and that the consult for Henry goes well. I worked in a couple of nurseries and to tell you the truth, some kids just take a little longer to decide to start talking... often it is just because they are happy observing rather than making their own voices heard for a little while longer. They all end up talking just as much as each other in the end xx
Sorry you have so much on your plate :( Sometimes life is overwhelming. Just know you have so many people in your corner. Praying these hard times are preparing you for all the joy that's headed your way!! Xoxo
ReplyDeleteI hate it when life piles everything on top of you all at once. Of course you're stressed and feeling overwhelmed. There is a lot on your plate. And Missy's surgery and subsequent lab results are a BIG deal. She is your sister and she means so much to you. I would be freaking out with worry and stress over that alone. Then you add Henry not talking into the mix, and while it might not be a big deal, it sure feels like it in the face of all that is going on already. But then, to make it all even more stressful, you add work woes. Yeah, I would be a mess too. Anyone would.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate that you posted about this because it gives me the opportunity to hopefully say something meaningful and help you feel like less of a wreck. And as my best friend and I say to each other when we both dump our troubles on each other's plates at the same time, it's nice to focus on someone else and their troubles for a minute so you can take a break from your own.
I am so glad to hear that Missy is doing well. I hope she continues to do so. I am sure she will. She is young, she is a fighter, and she has wonderful, strong people like you on her side.
Hang in there sweetie. Be sure to take some time out for you so you can catch your breath. Go buy yourself a tasty box of chocolates.
*hugs*
I love the honesty and authenticity even when it's not an upbeat post. It is very normal to feel stressed and teary and worried.
ReplyDeleteAnd it will all be fine, it's just going through it all sucks big time!
I'm sorry you're feeling so out of sorts, but your blog is the perfect place to get those frustrations out. Enjoy it and embrace it!
ReplyDeleteYou all remain in my thoughts!
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