A Camera's Help with Focusing on the Good

I have a lot of thoughts rolling around in my head.  Mainly about Missy and grief, heaven and the meaning of life.  You know.. the little things.  Henry is talking about Missy so much, and asking so many questions.  I embrace his questions, I  really try to.  But I wish I knew the answers, or I wish I didn't feel like I was making up the answers as I go.  I wish he didn't have to try to grasp things as big as death and loss and heaven at the age of four, because I am struggling like hell to understand them at 33.  And I want to write about it, but I can't quite formulate them into a post.  Right now the thoughts are too abstract.  Or the grief is just a little too strong today.  Maybe I will write it out someday soon, or maybe this post, that simply says I am struggling, will be enough to calm my head and my heart, and possibly ease my grief.

So along with that thought, today I will just give you some pictures from the last few days. I have taken some good ones.  And looking at them helps me to remember how many good things are happening right now, even when I am missing her so very much.



My boys, relaxing and playing the Wii U before bed

First day at the pool this summer.

Cousins

The girls

fuzzy head :)

Henry with his Aunt Boo, Uncle Chris and Cici

Cici with her Uncle Nick

Cousins again, just because they make me smile


A brave boy at the dentist this morning.  No tears, no cavities!

Enjoying every last drop...

Henry with his Papa and Mawmaw in South Carolina

Me and my boy

Life...it's pretty alright

I am glad I have been using my camera recently, because today these pictures are helping me to remember that.